Rope Above, Chair Below

Gazing to my life
a string of failures
desire to be transformed
to a desire not to be

Rope above
and chair below
I wonder how future will be
for a being not willing to stay

My eyes have proven
rise and fall of all
older than time I feel
now is the time to leave

This vast emptiness
of my so-called soul
I have not had had human feeling
as long as I remember

All my comrades have fallen
from beast to prey
from ashes to ashes
all life is a lie

Desire to leave this torment
has reached its zenith
rusten, rotten old one
its time to go now

Live between hammer and anvil
die between rope and chair
it seems even in death
I haven't progressed at all

Rope above
noose between
chair laying flat beneath
I am now as lifeless as I felt

Rope above
and chair below
I wonder how future will be
for a being not willing to stay