What I see, what I feel
Is it real? Is it me?
Is it the truth or just a bunch of rumors
Impossible to tell

I guess the reality of it
Never quite factors in
What matters is do I believe it
Do I push away or try to hold on?
Both seem to achieve the same thing
What matters is do I believe it

Things don't really go my way
I could really live more cleanly, say
But since when did I decide to be this way?
Am I just believing rumors?

The hot gossip of the day is this
It's important, you gotta find some bliss
The hot gossip around the fountain goes
Avoid the pain by painting inside the lines

I guess the reality of it
Never quite factors in
What matters is do I believe it
Do I push away or try to hold on?
Both seem to achieve the same thing
What matters is do I believe it

Do I want to get it all?
I've achieved a lot, but what did I get?
The feeling of serenity eludes me
I'm just a nervous mess
At this point, I'd trade it all
To feel whole