When I'm not in love (2006-2008)

Forsaken beach I crawl
no bare shoulders to feed my appetite
watching the kites to fall
no breath for a soaring flight
when I'm not in love.

Sky is evenly gray
clouds are hanging low
autumn cancelled the play
no more colors in the rainbow.
Even light gets lost
in the mist of my passed decades
humanity covered in frost
confidence degrades
I am not in love.

No storm to tremble my feet
no butterflies to keep digestion alive
no sunburnt legs to make my heart beat
don't need blue pills to survive
when I'm not in love.

Blur and grainy old look
of this film black and white
dissolved numbers of the book
bored in the rainy night.
Even light gets lost
in the mist of my passed decades
humanity covered in frost
confidence degrades
I am not in love.

No scent of breakfast tea
no sweet lips to spice cold soulless meal
can't taste salt after swim in the sea
no pearl in the banana peel
when I'm not in love.

Past in empty small frames
hollow moments to recall
being last is fate that lames
voices in the portrait hall.
Even light gets lost
in the mist of my passed decades
humanity covered in frost
confidence degrades
I am not in love.

In a cramped den I hibernate
I've seen enough life tapestry flaws
regret won't raise my brain rate
between two lives there's a pause
when I'm not in love.

Standing in the deep snow
no spirit for the arctic way
no high heel prints to follow
winter's here to stay.
Even light gets lost
in the mist of my passed decades
humanity covered in frost
confidence degrades
I am not in love.